EROS - ASTEROID OF LOVE AND DREAMS

"I love you so much..."

"Can we meet there? When we sleep together?" Make love on its surface and sit afterwards and watch the universe as it slowly flows by?"

"Meet me on Eros my love; I will be there waiting for you... Always for only you..."

We hung up the phones and went to bed with hope in our hearts
and love in our souls for the other.

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I fell into that space of between worlds where one is awake and not awake and I felt myself begin to fly towards an asteroid
that I knew not of its existence really nor of its shape nor
size nor location nor what it looked like; only that it existed
and I would meet my soulmate there. He was waiting for me; he
had promised me...

I could see the line that connected us and even that was a
marvel to me. Never before had I ever felt so connected to someone. I didnt know where I was going yet I knew I was going there. There were no doubts!

I spotted the asteroid tho it was nothing like I had imagined it might be. I flew over its surface and marveled at what I saw below. There were high snow-covered glistening mountains and low green lush plant-laden valleys and the surface I took in with a feeling of innocence and wonder at a place this beautiful tho
how could it be otherwise? My soulmate awaited me here...

I flew over deserts and felt the warm sun; I flew over beautiful clear lakes and shorelines and exotic plants but I did not see one bird. Perhaps I was the bird...

I began to fly over ridges and mountains and white glistening structures made of shimmering crystalline ice that sparkled and glowed and there in the distance I saw him. He was standing on a round platform of ice; he was talking to my daughter and they were laughing. My youngest daughter was down a bit to one side sitting reading a book in the warm sun. Tho it was bright with sunlight there was no sign of melting and the peaks and the ridges that glowed and shimmered and sparkled and shined formed
a place in space and time that was quite magical.

They saw me coming. I landed beside my soul-mate; and my oldest daughter smiled at me and left to join my youngest. I worried about my children; as it seemed it should be cold there so I handed them blankets that had been stacked to one side and told them to keep warm. My wonderful soul-mate of my Heart took me in his arms and held me strongly and I felt alive and warm. We sat down on a pile of blankets and held each other talking of this and of that; we laughed and giggled. He then turned to me and told me "We will never be apart again." and his eyes burned deeply into my soul and its message burns there still.

He spoke to my soul that day...

v.kipp 2001

PURPLE HEART OF LIGHT


He loved me; no man ever loved a woman as much as he loved me. I could feel his soul from so far away...his love for me thru all time and space.

What a dream...but it wasnt was it? You made remember what we were...what we did...what really happened on a planet so very far away so very long ago...

I started down the hall and you grabbed my arm; pulled me almost violently so. I looked at you; knowing if you did, there was a reason.

"Shhhh" you said as you held one finger over your mouth.
"She's coming...".

Trading my arm for my hand, we began to run the other way. I knew who you meant; the woman that was in charge of the
compound. Evil. Pure Evil. And we were trying to escape and it didnt look good; but word had it that one of the gates of the circular compound was open today for deliveries; and you had promised me that you would get us out of there.

We certainly didnt do anything wrong; and this was like
living in Hell. Our crime? We had refused to let the 'NWO' put
implants in us so we were being detained til they did it
forcibly and our number was up, very very soon.

This compound was full of those that would not give into their demands for implantation. We had seen these compounds being built; but we had assumed it was for the 'terrorists' or the illegal immigrants. How wrong we were. Now they were full of people that had never done anything wrong in their entire lives; that were being herded like cattle to give up their souls...

We had seen the effects of these so-called 'implants' had on others of our families, friends. While at first they were touted as the ultimate in identification and search and rescue, in all reality, that is how they got you. We watched as our loved ones turned into people we no longer knew nor did they know us. This was a nightmare. In one year the world had turned muddy black. Not only did it mark one forever, but those implanted now followed the orders of the NWO. Some actually even digressed physically it seemed; becoming remarkably ape-like, dumbed down and unaware.

Scan pulled me into a little alcove filled with boxes and we hid. He held me then; kissed me deeply; and I could feel the warmth of his touch and his love and his soul upon mine. I buried my head in his chest and just held him. I was trying to be brave; but I was scared. He knew that too.

Stroking my hair, he whispers to me, “Listen to me carefully. You can see where the deliveries are coming in. The door is wide open. If we plan it just right, we can run before they can catch us. But listen, you know I love you more than life itself; just in case we get separated? I want you to run and hide. Promise me you’ll do that.”

I looked up at him and I asked, “But if we get separated, how will I find you? Where will I look? Where do we meet? What happens if you dont make it thru?”

Scan just continues to stroke my hair and whispers, “Shhhhh now hon; you know we dont have much time and you know what you must do. PROMISE ME.”

“But I dont want to lose you I couldnt bear to lose you...” I said as I began to cry.

Scan hugs me tight; knowing what I was afraid to know. “Here; I will give you this.” And he touches my forehead and raises his hand and between us appeared a Purple Heart of Light. “Always remember you will know its me when you see this Heart of Light.”

I sat spellbound; by the wonder of my soul-mate; and his sign of Light between us. Only he could do such things; manifest the Light in such ways. I had never met another man quite like him. I trusted him; with all my heart and soul and mind and knew he loved me beyond all words.

He shakes me a bit; as a guard walks by; and we ducked down to avoid being spotted. Looking carefully around the end of one box we could see the door wide open. Scan said, "Now when I say, you run and you keep running and I will be coming after you okay?”

“Okay,” I said. But somehow my heart wasnt in it.

A few minutes later, Scan says ‘Now RUN!!!” And I ran towards the open door and heard you behind me leading a distraction. I looked behind and you were fighting the guards and I felt fear and sadness and I prayed you would be okay. I kept on running; but I looked again; and heard the shots. I stopped, looked at you while trying to catch my breath and you shouted, “Go!! Run!! Remember...remember the sign...” as I watched you fall to the ground...

I couldnt quit crying. I hid behind these bushes and waited
as these sub-humans without souls anymore were picking berries off this bush. They were the type that would yell ‘here here’ when they felt the presence of a non-implanted human. I was so scared, and now, all alone. I picked up a rock, and threw it on the other side of them. When they turned towards the noise, I ran across the road and into the woods.

I escaped; but I wish I had died. I wanted to think that I would have rather suffered the fate of the implantation instead of being separated from my soul-mate in such a permanent way. The tear in my heart numbed my soul and the pain numbed my mind as I ran farther and farther from the compound. What could I do anyway? Its not like I could save the world or change the way things were. And now Im without my love as well? I didnt want to live but I couldnt go back and I couldnt change things.

I didnt stop for days but to eat a bit here and there. I knew where I was headed; a very isolated area of the mountains north of the compound that no one but those that had been trained in survival could weather. But I knew how to survive. We had set this up, but didnt quite make it there before we had been caught. The cave was well stocked.
If there was one thing that my soul-mate had taught me, it was survival. I knew the caves, and the plants, and the water sources. I knew to stay away from using fires. I knew all this. I also knew they most likely wouldnt come after me there. At least, it would take them some time to figure out where I was.

Several weeks later, nestled in one of the caverns we had mapped out a few years back, I began to cry. It was all catching up to me and I felt so alone. My children gone, my family gone, my soul-mate dead. At least to this world. No friends, no family, no love. What was I supposed to do? Where was I really supposed to go?

That night I had a dream; and here was my soul-mate telling
me how much he loved me as he held me deep within his protective arms and warmed my soul and soothed my torn heart. Before he leaves, he says to me, “Ive got a present for you. When you awake, you will know what it is. I have sent them to you...” I smiled at him; and said “Ive miss you so much and I love you even more!!” And he says, “Yes, I know; my lovely soul-mate of my heart. But we must go our own way for a time okay? I will come for you when I can.”
I felt his warm lips upon mine and I closed my eyes and woke up to the new day.

Did I dream that? I must have; but he was here I swear! I shook the sleep from my mind but the memories of his touch were still upon me and would not leave. I began to cry...

I heard a noise outside the cave. It didnt startle me; but rather was a curious noise for these parts of the woods. A meow; yes it was a meow. I scuttled out of the cave rather on all fours to see if I could spot the animal and here before me were two little kittens. Oh wow I thought, kittens? But what were they doing here so far into the mountains? So far from civilization? It didnt make sense. Where was their mother? They didnt look all that old. Old enough to be weaned perhaps, but gees they were so tiny. I called to them. ‘Here kitty kitty kitties. What you doing out here? Kitty kitty kitty...”

They ran right up to me and into my arms...

I couldnt hardly believe it. “Where did you guys come from? Where is mother? Awww so sweet and so pretty.” The kittens were purring. One was white; with black spots on her forehead and the other a tabby. Its like they knew who I was tho Id never seen them before; that was quite impossible. I couldnt hardly get enough of the warmth of their little purring bodies in my arms. Something I could hold and love...

As I cuddled with them and petted them the air about me began to Lighten and I wondered if the weather was changing, and I looked up. Here in front of me, etched in the clear blue of the heavens, was a Purple Heart of Light; and then I remembered.

I never did find their mother; and we did survive. I spent
the rest of my life in that cave; my little home. Never did see anyone else, didnt really want to. I had my kittens that grew into cats, that had more kittens and I felt very blessed. Something to hold and to love and company for a war-torn soul and heart in a world that knew no grace. With time my little cavern was comfortable and I came to know it as home.

Scan would come and visit here and there; enough to give me comfort and let me know he was well in Spirit and longed for my touch as much as I longed for his. Oh how I loved him so...

A number of years later, I had a special dream with Scan. He holds me; and kisses me then tells me, ‘Its time to come home are you ready?” I said, “Can I bring my cats?” He smiles and says, “We will see what we can do, okay?” I smiled too.

I awoke to the sound of engines and human voices. For months I had lived in fear when I first escaped; but never did anyone seem to follow me or come look for me. I had long since accepted a certain amount of freedom and peace as mine but with the dream still fresh in my mind, I wondered if this was it. I hid in the back of the cave as far as I could; the cats huddling around me and they too, were in fear. When the man in the uniform entered the cave, I just stared at him, held my cats, and prayed.

He looks at me and motions to others outside, says, “Lookee what I found men!” as several others joined him in his peering into my little home. I looked at him and said, “If you want to take me back with you, Im not going. Id rather be dead.”

The man smiles at me and says, “That can be arranged little miss. I have orders to shoot whoever resists.” He points his gun at my face and sneers a bit and says, “Is this what you really want?”

I held my cats, looked at him and said, “Me and my cats. I want my cats with me. PLEASE if you kill me, kill us all.”

I heard three shots. Funny how it doesnt hurt to die...how welcomed it was as I felt Scan holding me assuring me I was with him once again and that everything was alright; my cats in my arms and me in his...

v. kipp 2/02/02